A Whisper

I completed my 29 years old and now going into the 30th years old. Many told me that 30 years old would be a turn over in my life. Although I didn't believe that before but now, thinking that I going into the 30th, is giving me such impression of being old. It's a mixed feeling between waiting to do more in the following years that I don't have the chance to do before and, in the same time, the feeling that I can't do anything more than what I'm doing currently.

For sure the past year was a different year for me full of special events, incidents and new relations in my live specially my engagement to the girl I do love. Also, joining more activities, make new friends, help in a youth formation camp for All in One in winter in Alexandria, helping in preparation of summer Foi et Lumière camp in Marsa Matroh and finally got my own apartment. Those events, friends and activities shape a good year full of success as I guess.

I don't have a long list of wishes in the next year. Wishes now is mixed between 2 persons and not only mine:

• I wish I can marry the beloved one that she choose to complete live with me
• I wish her to find the job she likes
• I wish I could feel satisfied in my current work or find a job that could give peace of mind
• I think I had to narrow down my activities and got some focus on Foi et Lumiere, All in One, CVX and Together In Front Of God Initiative

The blog had been closed for a couple of days due to exceeding the bandwidth which was 4GB/month. This wasn't due to much visitors, it was due to spambots and trackback spiders.

They come at all the day, they try to inject trackbacks and leave advertising comments to porno sites, nothing is published coz I disable trackback and enable capacha for comments but they just consume my bandwidth and leave me with the bandwidth bill!!!

Try now to find a way to block those spiders without affecting search engine robots.

I feel unmotivated these days to do anything in work. So, I googled for "work motives" hoping to find advices for motivations, but instead I got an online work motives questionnaire. I did it very fast and here's a results:

I would like to welcome my new blog partner Farah. She will post on her blog here for the time being and I'm happy for this.

Welcome Farah and thanks for being here...

P.S. You can subscribe to her feed

Purple (He)	Red (She)
You are mysterious, never selfish and get interested in things easily. Your day can be Sad or Happy depending on your mood. You are popular between friends but you can act stupid at times and forget things easliy. You go for a person that's trustworthy.	Cute and lovable type. You are picky but always in love... and liked to be loved. Fresh and cheerful but can be "moody" at times. Capable with people nice, soft and that can love you for the way you are. Likes people that are easy to talk to and can make you feel comfortable.

أنا تعبان بس مستريح
مبسوط بس خايف
مستعجل بس مش بسرعة
عايز بس معنديش رغبة

مش عارف كل حاجة داخله فى بعض كده ليه؟!!!!

I don't thought for one moment when I write my first post up till now that my blog could find readers that would like it.

Currently, I am tagged from 4 bloggers (Bluestone, Tarek, Lasto-Adri, Nesrina). I thank them all, I'm really flattered, but could you excuse me not answering your tags nowadays. I just not in the mode of answering tagging questions. To be more frank with you and with myself, in fact, I don't like answering questions that I feel others are pushing me to answer it without feeling I would like to answer it. May be I'll answer your tagging in my own way in later post(s). I just want to thank you here.

I know this's not within the socialization behavior that blogging culture push us to be but I don't like tagging, I don't know why!!!

Well, I start my first days after completing 28 years old. I revised my 28's wishlist and here's the new year wishlist.

Done wishes:

• In Career/Skills:
• • Got new job with better salary
  • Got more experience in PHP, specially PHP5
  • Got more experience in Unix, specially shell programming
  • Got more experience in Oracle, specially in PL/SQL programming

Living between people doesn't mean you're not alone. And feeling alone is not bad all the time but it's awful when have tears that no one to erase, laughs and no one to share, doubts and no one to speak out, making plans and no one to discuss.

Other moments, one wish to be alone when feel refused by his friends, stranger between people that don't understand him. At that time, I wish to go back to my island.

The best part about being alone is that you don't have to do what others want you to do (expectations without words). But, sometimes, when I'm back to home at night, I hope I would find someone, in there, waiting for me with missing eyes!